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I feel like when I really need people they aren't there. I am feeling very unimportant these days and underappreciated. Maybe these are pregnancy emotions? I think I am extremely loyal to those important in my life and would do anything for them. Is it too much to expect the same? I know I am a strong person but sometimes I need some help.

IDIOT

I am a very irritable person naturally. I WISH this was not a trait that I possessed but I do. The thing is now with this pregnancy and extra stress everywhere (money, pregnancy problems, two year old) I am sooooo irritable. I don't know how to control it or keep it in check. Things just annoy the hell out of me now. And unfortunately, if something is annoying or irritating me I can't just keep it to myself. I have to let it out. Poor George gets all the vent sessions, that is if I can control not actually telling the actual person who is irritating me. I can see myself getting irritated and know that it is for a ridiculous reason and I can't make it go away. Things that happened ions ago will suddenly pop up in my head and I will get so upset. How do I release this? Do I need some happy pills? Can you even take them when you are pregnant? Do I tell my OB about this? GRRR...