Musings

Lately, I have been reflecting on all the different ways my life could have gone. It could have turned out completely different with only the slightest decision. I think back and wish I could have told some people what I really thought at the moment for better or worse. Except for my few closest friends, all of my good friends were male. I loved all the guys I worked pest control with, waitressed with, and met randomly. I had some awesome guys friends. Even some of my boyfriends were such awesome friends that I miss that friendship. As my guy friends started getting married I realized I never wanted some wife to think wrong of our friendship and slowly drifted away. When I became engaged to George I dropped all my guy friends like hot potatoes. Not that he ever asked me to. To be honest I pretty much dropped all my girl friends too. Now I miss those friendships. Sometimes I will see someone that I use to be so close with and it is sad to see how time changes everything. I am sad that I don't know what is going on with their life. That I can't laugh and joke with them like old times. I get it that most of the time co gender friendships of married people can seem inappropriate. It just makes me sad to remember how much I loved them as a person!